Veteran's Day
Today we had off from work for Veteran's day. When I first woke up I felt okay, but just a bit tired still so I went back to sleep. I ended up oversleeping and getting another migraine. I figured out why I was getting all these migraines, though... My Depakote was cut in half and that's used to prevent migraines. I guess I just have to get used to it being lower and then the migraines will go away. That, or they are tension headaches. I have been twitching a lot lately, with muscle spasms in my legs. I don't know if that means I'm seriously stressed out, but signs are pointing to yes. I just don't know what I'm stressed out about. I don't think it's work, since I have such a good time there. I have to remember when the leg thing started... I know it's been like a week, and maybe that was the time that they gave me the talking-to at work. I might be scared that I'm going to mess up my chances at a job when I can get one. Still, being stressed out about it doesn't help... I don't know what I need to do to relax. I just know I need to figure out something soon.
At least I figured out that I'm stressed out before the mood swing started. Now hopefully I can prevent them. I guess I will be taking a lot of baths for a while until I calm down. I don't know what to look out for as a sign that I'm calm... maybe not getting the twitchy legs? I'm not sure. I'm horrible at figuring out how I'm feeling. I'm supposed to journal when I feel something, but I don't feel anything. I'm just going off of physical symptoms. My back is tight, I barely ate anything today, I have a migraine or tension headache, and my legs are twitching. Yup, sounds like stress to me, now if I only knew what was causing it.
My best guess is something about work. I know it's good for me- today I had off and I felt like crap, while the rest of the week I felt fine. I think because it gets me out of bed I have a reason to not oversleep and feel better. I know they just gave me another volunteer shirt at work, meaning that I'm going to be a volunteer for a while there, but it's my choice so I can go home in January. I just hope another part time job opens soon after I get back. I need to get out of the house and do something productive or else I feel like crap. I don't know what else I could be stressed about... I have enough money for stuff, things with Geo are going great, and I'm not worried about losing my apartment or anything. Things in my life seem to be stable.
Mood today was okay... I pretty much felt like crap and stayed in bed all day. I did manage to get out of bed and go for a 1.25 mile walk, but that's about it. I made orange chicken from a bag for dinner with rice and barely ate any of it. I'm still full, though. I hope I get hungry soon so I can at least pass the 1,000 calorie mark for today. I'm not even at 750 right now. I just feel like crap for the most part... I slept too much today. I slept like 13 hours overnight, which is okay, then took 2 naps. One nap was at around 1, and the other was at 5pm. Both naps lasted about an hour. The nap at 1 was the one that put me over on sleep and made me feel like crap. I need to learn to get out of bed and find something to do in the mornings when I wake up. It's light outside, so I can go on the computer, but I just want to lie here and be in peace. I should bring a book into the room so I have something to read to keep me awake.
Food today like I said above was bad... I had my chicken thigh with a spinach salad for breakfast, nothing for lunch and about 5 pieces of orange chicken with a cup and a half of rice for dinner. I just haven't been hungry today... I think that's a consequence of oversleeping. It's not that the food I'm eating is bad, it's just that I'm not eating enough of it. I'm going to try and eat some ramen later if I'm still awake... ramen with frozen veggies, lime and chili almost always sounds good to me. My mouth is watering over it now, but my stomach is saying no. I don't want to get sick and throw up the little food I've managed to eat today. My walk made me sick to my stomach as well. Maybe instead of getting stressed out I'm getting sick. I don't know. All I know is that I have to be careful with what I eat and try to eat as much as I can within my calorie range. Stress, sleep and mood I talked about above, and boy what a crappy day today was! I'm going to try and make tomorrow better!
At least I figured out that I'm stressed out before the mood swing started. Now hopefully I can prevent them. I guess I will be taking a lot of baths for a while until I calm down. I don't know what to look out for as a sign that I'm calm... maybe not getting the twitchy legs? I'm not sure. I'm horrible at figuring out how I'm feeling. I'm supposed to journal when I feel something, but I don't feel anything. I'm just going off of physical symptoms. My back is tight, I barely ate anything today, I have a migraine or tension headache, and my legs are twitching. Yup, sounds like stress to me, now if I only knew what was causing it.
My best guess is something about work. I know it's good for me- today I had off and I felt like crap, while the rest of the week I felt fine. I think because it gets me out of bed I have a reason to not oversleep and feel better. I know they just gave me another volunteer shirt at work, meaning that I'm going to be a volunteer for a while there, but it's my choice so I can go home in January. I just hope another part time job opens soon after I get back. I need to get out of the house and do something productive or else I feel like crap. I don't know what else I could be stressed about... I have enough money for stuff, things with Geo are going great, and I'm not worried about losing my apartment or anything. Things in my life seem to be stable.
Mood today was okay... I pretty much felt like crap and stayed in bed all day. I did manage to get out of bed and go for a 1.25 mile walk, but that's about it. I made orange chicken from a bag for dinner with rice and barely ate any of it. I'm still full, though. I hope I get hungry soon so I can at least pass the 1,000 calorie mark for today. I'm not even at 750 right now. I just feel like crap for the most part... I slept too much today. I slept like 13 hours overnight, which is okay, then took 2 naps. One nap was at around 1, and the other was at 5pm. Both naps lasted about an hour. The nap at 1 was the one that put me over on sleep and made me feel like crap. I need to learn to get out of bed and find something to do in the mornings when I wake up. It's light outside, so I can go on the computer, but I just want to lie here and be in peace. I should bring a book into the room so I have something to read to keep me awake.
Food today like I said above was bad... I had my chicken thigh with a spinach salad for breakfast, nothing for lunch and about 5 pieces of orange chicken with a cup and a half of rice for dinner. I just haven't been hungry today... I think that's a consequence of oversleeping. It's not that the food I'm eating is bad, it's just that I'm not eating enough of it. I'm going to try and eat some ramen later if I'm still awake... ramen with frozen veggies, lime and chili almost always sounds good to me. My mouth is watering over it now, but my stomach is saying no. I don't want to get sick and throw up the little food I've managed to eat today. My walk made me sick to my stomach as well. Maybe instead of getting stressed out I'm getting sick. I don't know. All I know is that I have to be careful with what I eat and try to eat as much as I can within my calorie range. Stress, sleep and mood I talked about above, and boy what a crappy day today was! I'm going to try and make tomorrow better!
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I hope you can get to feeling better.. it sucks to feel like crap. I know my stress levels have been very high but thats normal for me with my marriage situation so me feeling like crap is because of the change in seasons it seems i get this way every year i hate it.Could yours be because of the change in seasons or was it around the time when we set the clocks back. Here where i live it gets dark so early in the eveing now and i know that bugs me. Try to eat something light just incase you getting sick like you said. Take care hope tomarrow better day for ya Hugzzzzz
Maybe you are stressed out about worrying about what it is that is stressing you out, lol. you seem to be worrying about alot of thing that are trivial and cannot be controlled, you know, little things, don\'t sweat the small stuff. have a good weekend, I hope you are not getting sick, I have a bad cold and a rotten cough, it sucks.