Very Upset and Feeling Alone
Most of you know that I have been having Depression issues lately. I tried to fulfill a dream this week and it didn't happen. This upset me a lot inside because of what I thought this trip would accomplish but, it was not to be. Yesterday, I lost a good friend and today things did not go good for me either.
I guess I have become a pest and a instrument of stress to some here that mean very much to me. So, to them I apologize and I will refrain from bothering them. I have made the decision to kind of stay on the sidelines for a while. I have such a desire to help people, to be there for people, to encourage people and show genuine love for people but, I guess I am too overbearing and I get too involved. I apologize to any of you who read this and that I have caused any stress or heartache.
My nerves are on edge, my depression is bad and, I am very sad and hurt inside. I feel I am in no shape to be much of a friend or of help to anyone.
I love you all but, I can't keep this pace up, I can't handle the feeling of being pushed aside when all I have done is to try and show true, genuine, love. Funny, my wife says I have a misconception of what love is and, what a friend is. Maybe she is right. I will be around but, a lot less. I guess some may get a feeling of relief when they read this, that is, if they bother to read it. I guess I am too old to understand and too dumb to read between the lines.
I guess I have become a pest and a instrument of stress to some here that mean very much to me. So, to them I apologize and I will refrain from bothering them. I have made the decision to kind of stay on the sidelines for a while. I have such a desire to help people, to be there for people, to encourage people and show genuine love for people but, I guess I am too overbearing and I get too involved. I apologize to any of you who read this and that I have caused any stress or heartache.
My nerves are on edge, my depression is bad and, I am very sad and hurt inside. I feel I am in no shape to be much of a friend or of help to anyone.
I love you all but, I can't keep this pace up, I can't handle the feeling of being pushed aside when all I have done is to try and show true, genuine, love. Funny, my wife says I have a misconception of what love is and, what a friend is. Maybe she is right. I will be around but, a lot less. I guess some may get a feeling of relief when they read this, that is, if they bother to read it. I guess I am too old to understand and too dumb to read between the lines.
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Peewee.. you are a blessing to all who know you... Im so sorry if someone hurt you when you are feeling so raw right now... Im glad you do recognize you are in a depression and that is a serious illness... I hope you do stay on the sidelines of trying to give of yourself when you are so depleted... I hope though you will stay in touch for perhaps we can help you for now..smile.. you are such a good and dear man.. God loves you and so do I.. Jan..xx
I\'ve said it before, some people just don\'t get it and those people aren\'t worth your time and energy. Don\'t let them ruin the good you do for others. Right now you need your friends to help you get through your rough patch, then when you are ready you can help others again. Don\'t try to be there for everyone on here when you are feeling low, it will do you no good. Take time for you. Those of us that are your true friends will be here for you through this all.
Just remember all the good you have done and continue to do by helping others with the right words and/or deeds that have been sent for you to do by God and that you have accomplished. No one person can please all the people all the time. I, myself, have better luck with animals. A pet on the head and a treat in the hand win them over every time. They do not judge as we as people do. Please trust in yourself that you are doing the very best you can do with the tools you have. You are a blessing.
Just remember the most beautiful sunset comes after the darkest nights :-)
God bless xx
peewee you are first accountable to God Rest in him, draw your strength from Him . When and after He has filled you back up He will show you what to do.Don\'t let your hurt feelings guide you in what you will be doing but the Lord only. You are such a wonderful christain and I love you in the Lord my bro. Rest and know that everything that touches are lives God allows to use as tools in our lives. Please Don\'t retreat and stay on the side lines unless God is telling you to do that. Ask Him to continue to use you and show His love in a most unloveable situation. The greatest gifts we have are hope, faith, and love, with love being the most important. I am Deeply sorry about the loss of your friend and will be in prayer for you and their loved ones. Please hold on peewee............... peace& love, connie
concettah perhaps you dont realize what a serious illness depression is .. I dont think you would be encouraging your friend to work when he is so ill.. I think God is letting him know right now by the way he is feeling and suffering that it is the time to attend to his needs and wellbeing... I always wonder when I read this type of response to depression if a person would be given the same type of advise if it were a heart \'attack\'.. it can certainly be just as serious!
Pee Wee.. you know I understand more than anyone what you are going through. I will always be here for you. Always.. and I know you know that. I am so sorry you are hurting, and I hope you know that you are loved. You are a wonderful, caring, loving friend..... but take care of yourself first... that is what I want. You know you are always in my thoughts and prayers and in my heart.
Love you.
Lower your pride and go and get help hugs Wendy
Now it\'s our time to help ease your burden, my friend. Take the time you need to rest and heal yourself, Biker. Please know that while there are those who may have harsh words for you, your friends are here. Ready to help ease your pain in any way we can. We are lifting you up in prayer.
Rest as long as you need to. You\'ve earned that. ((Hugs)) Rachel
concettha knows full well what depression is she and I both have it.. I have seen something quite strange reading this, For myself I see alot of \"I\'s\". Leave it at the foot of the cross my friend, don\'t carry it around. I am not going to write a love letter, but you have been burning the candle on both ends. You haven\'t been bothering me, nor wld you do that, and pls dont listen to your wife, you have the correct meaning of friendship.
Keeping you in my prayers.
peewee, please beleive me when i say I am sorry if I affended you. I am going through a bad depression myself right now and am grabbing at what i know is the truth. That is the Lord and His word. I didn\'t want you to spiral down any further . You are hurting very badly for some time and now it has just gotten worse. Please help me to help you, go to the Lord and trust only in Him. He knows exactly what is happening in your life and He will carry you through it. Please let Him biker, Hugs& Love, connie You are worthy remember that!!!!