Very upset

I am so upset/depressed because I am a big fan of extreme makeover home edtion an they are coming 2 my county an there is this pep rally tonight 4 it an I cant go cause when I walk or stand for a long period of time my legs an my lower back where I had my spinal tap harts so bad an I cant do nothing like I use 2 when I was growing up.  this is a bunch of BS Im so upset I cant handle this. I dont have insurance I cant afford it I lost my job from missing so much work for IH. why oh why I feel like Im being punished an I dont do drugs I dont drink or smoke I dont party UI dont steal I dont do nothing why did I have 2 be diagnosed with this dissess.