Very sad these days....
It has been a long 4 months. My son gets his formal sentencing at the end of the month. We are hoping he will be here in VA. He only has me and his dad to visit, and if he gets sent to another state, we wont be able to see him like we do now.
I am feeling very sad about the fact that he will spend the next 13 years behind bars. I cry about it and I know there is nothing I can do about it...he did this to himself, but it does affect me..he lived with me for his entire 31 years on this earth. My other kids are away from home...and I have no one else...my mom and my brother are both gone, and my ex is remarried..even though we still manage some kind of relationship..it still is hard for me.
On the days I feel bad, there is no one here to give me a hug and tell me its going to be alright..my ex has his wife for that..I dont have anyone to talk to on those days..Oh I can call my daughter..but she is soo busy with her own life, that I often cant get ahold of her.
I know I sound like Im complaining..I guess in a way I am..I just wonder if anyone else feels this way...
Am I crzy to feel this?
I am feeling very sad about the fact that he will spend the next 13 years behind bars. I cry about it and I know there is nothing I can do about it...he did this to himself, but it does affect me..he lived with me for his entire 31 years on this earth. My other kids are away from home...and I have no one else...my mom and my brother are both gone, and my ex is remarried..even though we still manage some kind of relationship..it still is hard for me.
On the days I feel bad, there is no one here to give me a hug and tell me its going to be alright..my ex has his wife for that..I dont have anyone to talk to on those days..Oh I can call my daughter..but she is soo busy with her own life, that I often cant get ahold of her.
I know I sound like Im complaining..I guess in a way I am..I just wonder if anyone else feels this way...
Am I crzy to feel this?
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Your not crazy! I understand! My son just got 25-30 last week and with that he will have to do at least 12 years. I\'m divorced and raising my sons 13 yr old daughter. I\'m still in disbelief.
You don\'t sound like your complaining, what you are feeling is completely normal and we all get it because we are all going through the same thing. I am so sorry you are feeling bad, have you thought about seeing a therapist to talk to? I have found that it really helps, I don\'t know how I would have survived this long without mine. Coming here and venting does help. Try talking to members of your church. I wish I had the magic answer but this is not an easy road to travel. Just keep coming here when you are feeling sad, someone will almost always be here to help you. I really hope things turn out well at his sentencing and he gets to stay in VA. I\'m always here for you just message me if you want to talk, I\'ll be thinking of you and keeping you both in my prayers.
Hugs,
Pat