Very rough day

just feel so depressed today its crazy.. all day even at work all i thought about was how horrible i feel that my husband got stuck with me and if he had been with others he would have the children we wanted a long time ago.. i just cant understand y me... the one thing i want most in the world that most women can do without ne thought in the world and I can't... on top of all that still no AF called the doc today and now she wants me to take provera to make AF come... all these meds... I am an emotion mess, who cant understand when its gonna be my turn... I just wish for some positive soon