Very depressed From what Happened Today

I have been seeing this new Pain Management Doctor my Rheumatologist sent me to and boy am I sorry that I ever saw that Clinic and that Doctor and those Ruse PA. I have been trying to follow the rules and come in once a month to check in and give Urine when asked and bring my pills I take, All of a sudden yesterday the Clinic called me and said I needed to come in for a Random Pill Count. Of course. I had never heard of it and ask her what she meant. She said they do this thing off and on sometimes up to twice a month and I told them I was on a limited income and I couldn't constantly be coming in wasting my grocery money for Taxis,but that I would try to find a way. The next thing I know she leaves the room and comes back with papers telling me they couldn't treat me any longer and made me poor what was left, like it actually belong to them into some kind of sack to desolve them, I didn't want to because thats all I had and I should have told them to step aside and let me out the door,but it was like I was trapped by theses crazy PA's.  I threaten to sue them and walked out the door. I;m without pills now for the firs time and scared to death of the impending Withdrawals from not having my Oxycodone. I feel like I have been violated like I had no rights. I don't know what to do, I'm scared.