Very Depressed & Alone. Need Friends badly.

I'm feeling very depressed and alone.  I have severe chronic pain issues and today (this morning) the pain is unbearable, mostly my back and left hip/flank area. Pain meds aren't helping.  I feel pressured to feel better b/c my my mom is not well, nor is my s-father.  Their coffee pot broke and they need a new one asap, and I'm the only person they have to help them.  I know needing a coffee pot must sound so trivial, but to them it's important.  I absolutely cannot function enough to get dressed and get into my car and drive, to shop for a coffee pot, or groceries or anything at this point.  I'm uninsured,  or I'd go to an emergency room in search of additional help for the pain I have.  Also, I wouldn't be able to sit for hours and wait in an ER waiting room anyway b/c the pain is just too bad.  I have no friends and no other family to help me with my mom and s-dad.  I feel totally overwhelmed.  I'm praying hard to Jesus to take the pain I have away and to send me comfort.  I need friends in a big way, just for emotional support.  I'm not one to ask anyone else to "help" with caregiving...  I feel that I've lost a lot of friends b/c of the situation I'm now in... Living in my parent's home is not conducive to dating, or having friends.  They cannot come into my parent's home and I have too much pain to go out most of the time.  I'm praying for Help.

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Willow215
Willow215

Today was an \'okay\' day. Anxiety is a constant. Depression is always looming. Still, I made it through this day. Thank God. I\'m SO glad for all of the support and friendship I find on DS!