Very Alone

Today, I felt very alone.  I was gone and I didn't get to be here on DS.  I had few people to talk to today.  I was busy cleaning 2 businesses.  I got home this evening and hoped to find some friends here but, there weren't many here so, I sent a couple of messages.  It was rainy here today too.  rainy days seem to affect me more.  My Harley is in the shop, being serviced and I haven't been able to ride it either.  Things not good here at home.  Nerves had been really bad.  I went to the Chiropractor yesterday for my neck stenosis.  It was in bad shape.  Planning on trying to get away on my Harley for a few days before the weather gets too bad.  I need a break from all the stress that I have been under for the past 4 or 5 years.  Self worth is low.  The poem I posted in my journal  "Who are you" kind of says it all for me.  Funny, I wrote this poem in about 20 minutes and I was so rattled when I wrote it, that my hand was shaking.  Things have to get better for me.

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concettah
concettah

my self worth is low too! I would like to get away but the problem is I have to take myself with me. I need a break from my mind, this depressionand the inability to concentrate very long. what\'s wrong ??? why are you needing to get away??? I loved your poem and left a comment. Was praying you would be feeling better by now. The days are getting shorter so their is less daylight making my seratonin drop. I\'ve been sitting under my sun lamp to raise my mood but so far I\'m still blaw. I\'m sorry if I am being a downer but I can\'t seem to hook up with anyone either today that is walking in these same shoes. Hank in there oldbiker you are not alone. Hugs, connie
deleted_user
deleted_user

HEY, I CAN RELATE. IN THE PAST I HAVE OWNED TWO BIKE. THE SECOND YEAR GOLDWING AND A YAMAHA 350. i KNOW ESPECIALLY ON SATURDAYS I WOULD GET ON MY AND JUST START GOING. WHERE? NO WHERE? I WOULD GET OUT ON COUNTY ROADS AND JUST RIDE. NOT FAST BUT NOT SLOW. OH HOW RELAXING IT WAS AND MY STESS LEVEL WOULD BEGIN TO THAW. I WOULD SMELL THE PINE TREES, FRESHLY CUT HAY AND OF COURSE TH B.S. SOMETIMES I WOULD JUST GER LOST. TURNING ON THIS ROAD AND THE ANOTHER. SOONER OR LATER I WOULD COMES ACROSS AN OLD COUNTRY STORE WITH ONE GAS PUMP. I WOULD FILL MY BIKE AND GO IN AN BUY A COKE AND JUST RELAX AND TALK TO GOOD OL\' COMMON FOLKS. I WOULD ASK WHERE THE NEAREST HIGHWAY WAS AND THEN I BEGAN GOING HOME. I AM 62 NOW AND WHEN I LAID MY YAMAHA I KNEW IT WAS TIME TO QUIT. ENJOY YOUR MR. HARLEY. I WILL LET THE OTHERS TALK TO YOU ABOUT HOW YOUR ARE FEELING.

ROGER
deleted_user
deleted_user

are you on facebook? maybe i could chat with you there. hope tomorrow is better for u. take one day at a time and ,if that\'s too much, then just take one hour at a time. pray without ceasing.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hey Pee Wee......... Sorry I wasn\'t here with you on DS last night..... :0(

You know you are always in my thoughts though and I know how hard things are for you right now........ hang in there..... love u
deleted_user
deleted_user

I pray you will feel better soon. Life gives us some hard licks....I think about just how sad and down my son must have felt and it rips my heart apart that we can kicked around in this life. Have hope and know God is with you. I know you know that but we are to be encouragers.....I need it everyday. The weather can affect our moods, too. Luckily, here it is wonderfully cool and sunny...hope your weather and mood gets better.....love October. Take care, dale...brandon\'s mom
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD

Can you just take time off of all work Peewee???..I think your body and mind is telling you that you just need some time for you..all else will wait for you to recover...this is no different than someone who has heart disease or any other serious illness...God wants us to take the steps we need to, to be as well as we can... quiet time and you time to heal I think are vital right now.. love and a blessing for you my friend..xx
beaniesgirl
beaniesgirl

Taking a few days to get away from it all can be very helpful. Please do what you can to totally disconnect from your stressors when you do that though.

Praying for you to easily find God\'s peace Biker!
((HUGS)) Rachel