Very Alone

Today, I felt very alone.  I was gone and I didn't get to be here on DS.  I had few people to talk to today.  I was busy cleaning 2 businesses.  I got home this evening and hoped to find some friends here but, there weren't many here so, I sent a couple of messages.  It was rainy here today too.  rainy days seem to affect me more.  My Harley is in the shop, being serviced and I haven't been able to ride it either.  Things not good here at home.  Nerves had been really bad.  I went to the Chiropractor yesterday for my neck stenosis.  It was in bad shape.  Planning on trying to get away on my Harley for a few days before the weather gets too bad.  I need a break from all the stress that I have been under for the past 4 or 5 years.  Self worth is low.  The poem I posted in my journal  "Who are you" kind of says it all for me.  Funny, I wrote this poem in about 20 minutes and I was so rattled when I wrote it, that my hand was shaking.  Things have to get better for me.