VENTING (JUST DONT MIND ME)

So this sunday dec 4th will be one year since my beloved grandmother has passed. Its been a hard year with out her. I have delt with a miscarriage an learning i hvae IF. All with out her here tohelp me. Its been so hard. An i cry often thinking of her. I had no where to vent an though this would be a ok place to get my thoughts out! My heart broken when she passed. But i know now she isnt suffering or having to worry about taking all those nasty meds. But this year might of been a little easier with her input an advice. I cantbelieve everything i have delt with this year. This has been officially the worst year of my life. Mentally,physically,emotionally,finacially. She would always keep a leve head while tlaking to me n helping me sort through my issues. She will always be though of. An its so hard not to just pick up a phone an call her. An at thanksgiving i went in herold room n sat there an though about how the she would sit in her chair an the whole fmaily would watch the macy thanksgiving day parade while eatting our thanksgiving lunch.  Then she would go take a nap an get up ready to watch the news. God i cant even watch nascar races anymore bc she watched one every weekend! She love dale sr an jr an tony stewart. Iam so empty inside with out her here. I swear sum times i wish a part of me could of went with her. I miss her so much!... going to sit in my office n cry!