Venting------
Hey friends!
Been a while since I posted----LOTS going on---
Anxiety has been horrific! I'll be driving to work and feel like I am dying! I know it is the busy traffic which gets me, but still---
Depression has been allt ime high! This Sunday (April 22) is the anniversary of my father passing-----
Self Esteem---well, heck! I NEVER had it and never will! It sems like evrytime, I "almost" get ready to "try" and accept myself----boom! Something happens! Example: the other day at work a lady was tlaking about how huge her brother's arms aren (you can read some of my initial journal entries fyi) I am sitting there thinking WOW! I can;t even get on my feet without being run over!
Sucidal thoughts---yes---I battle daily--well byt he second actually-----
Thanks for listening
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I have been dealing with some of that driving anxiety myself. Have you thought of listening to music to calm yourself. Or maybe a
book on CD, So you can have something to distract you that won't be a dangerous distraction. That is often what I do.
I know how hard it is to miss a parent. Could you do something to honor your dad.......watch his fav movie or meet up with his brother
or best friend and go for lunch, or visit his grave and talk to him, or make his favorite dinner and enjoy remembering the good times?
I have been having the occasional suicidal thought too. But daughter really needs me right now so I am trying to just be happy about things and be busy with it all for her sake. Put my own crap on the backburner. Wish I could offer you advice on that one... Sometimes for me it's just one minute at a time.
Good to see you reaching out. Sending hugs
Hey, listen, those tips Julie gave are some really good ones. Celebrate his life instead of remembering what you lost.
And, bonehead, what others say about others does NOT apply to you. Silly man. In going to suggest that when someone is about to make a breakthrough, Satan comes along and screws with everything.
The more you look for God, the more you see Him.
In the birds singing, the flowers blooming, the pollin flying through the air giving life to new plants (yea, don't really like that last one myself. But. It IS the work of God!!!) The beautiful, bright colors around you. The life giving air, just anything and everything around you.
I still care,.,even if you need a good slap up side the head.
There...that's the ticket...every time one of "those" thoughts come along, give yourself a mental slap up side the head for me!!! :-))
Wow my Mom was born 4/22. Im actually in the ER as Im on DS with my Mom. She is being very Obnoxious. I think music in the car is a good idea. Maybe something you can sing along with.
I battled severe anxiety for many years. I listened to a lot of Enya and would aso pull up New Age music on You Tube which helped a lot.
Some people take medication for anxiety. I never did but it might be worth looking in to.
Thanks to all-----I appreciate you!
I am so sorry you aren't doing well. I have not been either. Anxiety, depression. I prayed for God to take me last night. I hope we both get to experience a "good" day at least once this week.