venting

i still hurt alot and still am way too sensitive. it overwhelms me alot. i try to get lost in others and it hurts. atleast im becoming more aware and letting her talk me through it.she says i take things too personally. yes i do. i just cant stop being me i dont have a self i like to do for others. i would never say no to someone that wanted come see me. never ever ever. she said its cause she has million things to do and knows she wont do them if im there. cause we kinda have hard time not holding each other. so why should this make me sad. we dont have alot time together but she is so kind and caring and total opposite of my ex. she is giving and understanding and loving. and i need realize not everyone is like me. i want to be more independent and just enjoy time i do have with her and i want stop falling apart. i told her i love her and she said those r beautiful words from beautiful woman. should that be enough. do i need her to say it or scream it off the rooftop. she shows it in many ways deep breaths holidays hit me hard just trying recover