Valentines Day
I'm giving myself a present today. One more day away from him. Every day away I'm a little stronger.
I'm all over the place. I'm overeating, not sleeping, exhausted, talking my head off, sad, hopeful, scared, lonely, free, all kinds of things. I hope I will settle down soon.
I am being gentle with myself. I am giving myself small things to accomplish each day & giving myself great kudos when I do. I am treating myself like someone who is ill, because it's true.
The differences this time, this last time of leaving him is a lot. This gives me hope that I really will stay away. I'm not trying to convince him that I'm a good person, I'm not looking at my phone hoping/dreading for a text. If he does text me, I feel like I'm allowed to ignore it. I am not consumed with if he is okay, if he is eating, if he is sad, if he is drinking and driving. I hope he is okay, but that's all.
It's Valentines Day & I have no great love, no other half & I AM SO OKAY WITH THAT. I'm getting more of myself back. I have a hope of becoming whole again.
I'm all over the place. I'm overeating, not sleeping, exhausted, talking my head off, sad, hopeful, scared, lonely, free, all kinds of things. I hope I will settle down soon.
I am being gentle with myself. I am giving myself small things to accomplish each day & giving myself great kudos when I do. I am treating myself like someone who is ill, because it's true.
The differences this time, this last time of leaving him is a lot. This gives me hope that I really will stay away. I'm not trying to convince him that I'm a good person, I'm not looking at my phone hoping/dreading for a text. If he does text me, I feel like I'm allowed to ignore it. I am not consumed with if he is okay, if he is eating, if he is sad, if he is drinking and driving. I hope he is okay, but that's all.
It's Valentines Day & I have no great love, no other half & I AM SO OKAY WITH THAT. I'm getting more of myself back. I have a hope of becoming whole again.
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Great post, you are doing amazing, I was happy to hear how your day was, honestly, you did better than me today and I\'ve been at this a lot longer, oh well. We are going to have our ups and downs, that is why we are here, to support each other. Thanks for the hug.