Valentine's Bliss

Who'd have thought it possible?
I wouldn't have two years ago.  Two years ago on Valentine's Day I was suicidal.
This year?  Definitely bliss.
Great wine.  Good food.  Excellent company. H smiled at me all night which warmed me to my very soul.  I feel like I'm a princess on a pedestal when he smiles at me like he does.
I wore my sexah undies for when we got home, but he wanted to play some video games together and wore out pretty quickly.  To be fair, he's been dealing with super early mornings and had a rough day at work.  He did promise me a rain check since he works tomorrow and then has four days off.  Trust me, I plan on taking him up on that rain check.

So much has changed.  I truly and sincerely thought I'd never feel calm again.  I never thought I'd feel safe again.  I spent so long in "fight or flight" panic with adrenaline pumping and constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop, I thought things would never get better.  It's such a relief to be able to just smile and hold hands and talk and look into each other's eyes and feel HOME again.