vain, and will things ever change?
You never act sorry but that face of an angel you have comes out just when you want it to. I took a chance with you because deep down I believed in you. You act like I'm bullet proof but I'm not. You have a weird way of showing your feelings but I'm tired of your attitude and your mean streaks. I get that life isn't a fairy tale but this is a big world and I was a survivor before you and I won't let you bring me down. There are bigger and more important things in this world. I have wasted enough time hoping you would really come around. I have been giving out chances and all you do is let me down. I don't have you figured out, not sure if I ever will. Doubt i will be sticking around long enough to figure it out. I know I'm not perfect and it takes two people to mess things up...but how can forgiveness start with out a better understanding of the reason behind everything. All I wanted was your heart...maybe not to steal it, but to see it..to feel it with you...The more I think about it the more I realize how everyone is so completely vain and I am guilty as well. All we do is think about ourselves. How we feel just seems to be the most important thing. Our lives drama, our appearance, our friends, our ties in this world and the status we hold, and any worldly thing. Our human nature is selfish. Why is that? Not that people don't have good intentions or a heart of passion for others but deep down aren't we all vain? Are we all in a race against each other? And in life do we ever slow down enough to realize that the world is still happening whether or not we are apart of it? Can we not see that the world is a dark place with problems we can't fix with out each other? And do we choose our lives or are they just what we make them? Hope these words aren't offensive. I don't know anyone's heart but it just seems like the world as a whole is just so self adsorbed that we can't realize that there is a purpose to life that is bigger than just making the world go around by fulfilling duties of working and paying bills. Am I wrong in thinking we should all have a desire to save each other? Random thoughts....tired and rambling....
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wow these are very powerful words. and it all is true. i really enjoyed reading this
Powerful and Interesting Words... Wow.. I enjoyed reading this...
Yea Id say your mostly right but there is a small percentage of us who dont think that way and who feel empathy for others and arent vein and shallow and self absorbed. Yes they are hard to find and sometimes we ourselves are so absorbed with thinking about how others are so selfish that we dont see the ones that arent. Our brains at times become so fogged with distrust and uneasiness with others that we dont see some peoples true nature. I try as hard as possible not to judge people for their exterior facade until Ive seen their interior hora! It takes alot of patience sometimes to get past that exterior wall we put up but in the end its worth seeing the truth in people. When were all stripped of our mask\'s we are all the same in the end. Afraid, confused, nervous, hopeful, and misunderstood!