Vacation, all I ever wanted, vacation have to get away!

So tomorrow I am going to Ocean City, New Jersey with my best friend Deanna. I know I'm a baby but I'm nervous I'm going to be homesick and have ED issues there. It's from tomorrow, Sunday, until Saturday. I will be able to call home whenever. But I'm still really anxious.  I'm afraid I'll be homesick and miss my family. I went away to camp the summer before high school for two weeks and it was the most miserable experience of my life. I felt so lonely and anxious. I lost a ton of weight there in only two weeks. But this time it will only be for 5 days, I'll have my best friend, and be able to call my parents whenever I feel like it. Plus just relaxing at the beach and boardwalk should be fun. I don't know yet if I'll be able to get on here but I sure hope so because it would relieve my anxiety a lot to know that I could contact you guys when I needed support. I know there is a computer at the house we are staying at but I don't know how much I will get to use it and if I will get private time to go on this site. I don't want her family that we're staying with to see the site and that I have an ED and self injure and judge me. But they will probably see anyways if I restrict or binge. I look alright in a bathing suit meaning I'm not scary skinny, but sometimes I get this awful urge to suck in a little bit and my ribs fly out. Everyone gasps and says you should not look like that even when you suck in. You're too skinny. And then I feel self conscious. If I don't suck in I feel fat. If I do I feel like a freaky skeleton.    Also I'm afraid I may have trouble sleeping. I need my comforter and two special pillows to sleep. I am bringing my comforter and one special pillow so that will have to be enough. Also I hope it's not too hot because I need cold air to sleep! Ugh I'm sorry I'm such a complainer, haha! So. The eight hour drive is tomorrow. I pray this goes well! Wish me luck!