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have the next nine days off. thankfully. stood up for myself this morning. of course after i freaked out. she did try to contact me last night but was tired so shut phone off. but she knows i work fridays and said i was gonna stop by. i wanted and needed her to come see me. i was very upset after found out have cancer and all i cared about was maybe she will want to come see me now. why does my head work this way. so of course by text i thanked her for the wake up call said i cant do this anymore. she said eventually i will get to come over her house but whats the point if she getting ready for work.then she said to me its the little emotional outbursts that make me not want to hang with you. excuse me im sorry if i just found out i have cancer and got noone to talk too and im scared and just wanted my gf. its called feelings asshole. so she says maybe we can be friends if your not gonna be emotional and see where the fuck it goes from there. and i talk to her why. she makes me feel like im a crazy person. i got put on meds which im against cause i feel mental. yes maybe a little but not totally. so now she gonna call tonite and i got nothing to say. just wanna wait till my kids show up tomorrow and get the hell out of here.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

i have to say you did a good job to state what you needed and how you fet and why,,, im sorry u r hurting,,,,,sometims it takes an eye opening experience to see te real person, if she was w anyone else and doing this what would u tell the other friend? would u sy thats messed up or hey just go with it? try to think of it from a third person point of view if you can maybe.. have a wonderful time w your kids, and be gentle and kind w yourself,,,,,,, your a good person, re feelin crazy,, comes a time ew all reach a place we may need som help w some meds and its okay,,,,,, doesnt mean its permanent, and even if so thatd be fine, what would be the diff in anti depressants if down and stressed out or blood pressuremeds if your blood pessure was high,,,,, you fine, please dont be so harsh on yourself, i value your friendship,,,,,,, KD
alijoezack
alijoezack

thank u
alijoezack
alijoezack

i still dont totally see it not enough to walk away. i belittled myself by inviting myself over her house again but she never answered my question. said she will spend tuesday with me but already making excuses about the weather for the day and time frame. so i am just gonna enjoy my kids and my time up country.