I think this has to be one of the hardest times of my life. I'm working night and day. Was up til 2 last night. That's why I've been off DS for so long. And unfortunately I've needed DS pretty bad. But for a month and a half now, we're paying our mortgage on our old place, rent on our new place, and mortgage on the new land. So every day that our old house isn't for sale yet, we're killing money. I had NO IDEA it would take this long. And I had no idea that dealing with all our stuff and dealing with all these outstanding projects would be so hard. It hit me this morning that it's triggering. It's subtle, but it's triggering. This is going to be fodder for lots of journals once I'm done with the main projects - maybe by next weekend?? Okay, I need to check some journals, and then get to work - and today will be hard because it's my first unpopular message as a "manager" - I absolutly hate being a boss. As I'm typing I'm realizing that THAT is triggering too. I haven't seen my therapist in so long - I need to make an appt, even if it means putting of the house a bit longer. And my so-called-best-friend is coming to town tomorrow with all her baggage. I know this will all pass - but I hate being in it right now. I wish I knew a positive way to wrap this up, but I just don't. Okay, here's this - there have been times when I'm on my hands and knees scraping tile in the icky basement when I can feel the support of this network. Thank you. Know that I've been giving energy back.