Utah Retreat!
I'm here at home waiting, its like I'm at the starting line waiting for the buzzer to go off, lol. We have been waiting all year for this, and I'm sitting here confused as hell.. But I have everything in order ready to go......CRAZY HUH!! I'm excited and sad at the same time..It could of been those 2 candy bars I ate yesterday and this morning.. Darn I tried to lose 10 to 20 pounds, that was one of my goals this year, HUH! NOT!! I gave up, F IT... It is what it is...Who cares, between the fried Seafood and candy bars, ADDICTION to what ever gives me bursts of happiness, then boom, down again...I know this, but quiting smoking for almost 2 years now.. Woo Hoo!!! I LOVED SMOKING, how bad is THAT?
I've been taking care of my mother, she had a hip replacement.. She gets easily confuse and forgetful. So I'm writting her notes and filling her Meds until I get back.. My Jake, my dog, is gonna be missing me, and I worry about him running out of the house to try to find me...I'm turning everything over to GOD! its out of my control...
I haven't talked to Erica since last weekend... She now is married to a wonderful man, who love to spoil her, he is a keeper.. She had moved 3 years ago..The empty nest syndrom really bites...It has been 6 years since my son Ryan went to heaven... I think this whole year has been another grieving process living without my 2 beautiful Children...I'll get through it, it could be worst...
OK, Now that I wrote something in my journal maybe I can get up and finish my mission...OH, by the way, my last journal I put private b/c at the time I thought there was a few bad accidents and inncidences, sp, had had happened. I thought the journal I wrote was a little harsh..it was about overdoses, how one lived and the other one didn't.. It really makes you think why one dies and some don't from this disease of herion, drugs, etc...Its all in gods hands, We can't worry about it or we will die from it all.. I almost lost it with Erica using back 3 years ago, now she just drinks on friday or saturday nights.. UUUUMMMM! Anyway back to writting phone numbers in my phone....
JUST SAYING!! WOOOHOOO! TOMMORROW I'M LEAVING!!!!See ya in Utah!
Love you all!! Kelly
I've been taking care of my mother, she had a hip replacement.. She gets easily confuse and forgetful. So I'm writting her notes and filling her Meds until I get back.. My Jake, my dog, is gonna be missing me, and I worry about him running out of the house to try to find me...I'm turning everything over to GOD! its out of my control...
I haven't talked to Erica since last weekend... She now is married to a wonderful man, who love to spoil her, he is a keeper.. She had moved 3 years ago..The empty nest syndrom really bites...It has been 6 years since my son Ryan went to heaven... I think this whole year has been another grieving process living without my 2 beautiful Children...I'll get through it, it could be worst...
OK, Now that I wrote something in my journal maybe I can get up and finish my mission...OH, by the way, my last journal I put private b/c at the time I thought there was a few bad accidents and inncidences, sp, had had happened. I thought the journal I wrote was a little harsh..it was about overdoses, how one lived and the other one didn't.. It really makes you think why one dies and some don't from this disease of herion, drugs, etc...Its all in gods hands, We can't worry about it or we will die from it all.. I almost lost it with Erica using back 3 years ago, now she just drinks on friday or saturday nights.. UUUUMMMM! Anyway back to writting phone numbers in my phone....
JUST SAYING!! WOOOHOOO! TOMMORROW I'M LEAVING!!!!See ya in Utah!
Love you all!! Kelly
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Wow, I love you my friend! You always make me smile (and sometimes laugh out loud) when I read your journals. I surely know what you mean about that candy. I consume it like a madwoman when I\'m stressed, and it gives me the kick I need but the let down is horrible. Oh well. I better start packing. Everything is all over the place! Look forward to seeing you soon! Big Hugs, Diane
Kelly, see you soon. Check your Dad\'s cell phone. It cannot get messages due to no mailbox is set up. I tried to call to let you know that you can check in for your flight online 24 hours prior. Hugs, Belinda
Have a great time in Utah. Will miss seeing everyone. Love and hugs, Beth
See you there!! We are in Jackson Wyoming so it may be later when we get in! Take some deep breaths and enjoy the trip.
Love and Hugs, Marlene
Hoping your bag is zipped and you are ready. Safe travels dear one and you are loved. I\'ll be needing your help with a few things when I get there tomorrow morning so don\'t be too \"far away.\" LOL! I\'ll find YOU! Thanks for your cell number and it\'s in my phone. XO Joanie
Love & hugs and wishes for safe flights, Linda