Urges to call him come and go

It has been two weeks now since I have talked to him.  It has been two days since I talked to Manuel.  I am learning to be strong on my own, but not to be alone all the time.  I have goals to 1)become more spiritual  2)make 2 female friends; at least one who asks me questions/shows interest  3) find a hip hop dance class  4) next summer make more money