Ups and Downs
One minute I feel as though I am doing okay, of course I am always missing Austin, but sometimes I am able to think about him and smile. I think about the good times we had together or the funny things he did or even about what he might be doing in heaven. I sometimes like to think that he is watching me and maybe even walking with me - going through the day with me. It makes me feel so good when I am able to think that he is still with me.Then other times I am so sad and as hard as I try to be happy or to think "positive," I can only be sad and miss Austin like crazy. Boy they sure aren't kidding when they say this is like a roller coaster ride! I miss you sweet pea! Thank you for sending the hummingbirds.
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Yeah, it\'s the worst, longest roller coaster of all time, and we are only at the beginning!!!!! Hugs.
It does suck. I am approaching the 2 year mark here...once you hit the first year it does kind of sink in and at least the \"firsts\" without Austin will be over. The second year is just a matter of fact sadness of this is just how it is. There are still bad days. Thinking \"positive\" helps but even then there are days where that all just seems to be a bunch of crap too. Now, when every little good thing happens, every little sign, it is our angels up there making it happen for us. Hang in there hunny.
We need to believe in our angels; in their wonderful signs and that they are always with us. They are amazing! Nicks mommy is really good with words, she is so right! I know that just by being outside and feel the nature around me made me feel better; sometimes I could almost feel his presence, especially when I needed it the most.
We\'re all on the ride with you. I think austin sends you thoughts to smile to, I feel the same from Colin.
Just remember your not on this roller coaster alone. there are those of us who have been on this ride for a while, and there are those that are just boarding, but you aren\'t alone