Updates and such.

So, I'm about to be a senior in high school. 
When I was younger, I thought that by this time, I would have had myself figured out. I would know where I wanted to go to college, what I wanted to do with my life, and I would be very confident in my choices. 
Well, it hasn't come to that. 
But, I don't think it's supposed to. 
I'm going into senior year terrified and extremely unsure of who I am. I'm nervous, excited, sad, happy, dreadful, and probably almost any other adjective. 
In some ways, I'm not that different from the little girl that made this account several years ago. 
Still battling an eating disorder, self harm thoughts, suicidal thoughts, struggling with my weight, and dealing with abuse. 
But I'm just ready to learn and grow this year as a person. I don't want to know it all. I don't want to be the person who has it all figured out. I don't think that's possible. I'm just ready to live this year to the fullest.