Update: sucked back in...

Sooo.. long story short, OW had a miscarriage, H broke up with her, I made the mistake of having a conversation with him, and he manipulated me again. He bought me a plane ticket to go visit him and was having daily conversation/skype sessions with our kids. He made a bunch of promises to me and the kids, which he did not keep btw. We spent the month of January constantly on the phone or on skype (xcept while at work) even while we were sleeping. In February I flew out and we spent a week together without the kids. We had a great time, lots of fun. Spent our first Valentine's Day together since 2006, drove from Texas to CA together. Then he stayed at my house for the rest of February and half of March. He got to be home for our son's birthday party for the first time ever since he's always been deployed. Everything was great. Perfect. We never argued, we did fun things with the kids, like Disney on Ice... We were all happy.  Still, the whole time we were together, the past haunted me. I had a lot of anxiety about the future, but tried to stay in the present moment and enjoy our time.  Mid March, he left for his new duty station in Washington, promising me and the kids that he would find a house and then send for us to go live with him. The first week he was gone was depressing for all of us but we still communicated daily. The second week, the communication started to drop off. He rarely called and sometimes when I called him he wouldnt answer.  The third week, he went out partying with his new friends and wouldnt answer the phone all weekend. Then he broke the news to me that he found out he would be deploying later this year so he didnt want us to move up there anymore.  After that, communication was almost non-existent.  The day after Easter, he finally told me the truth.  He said I deserve to be with someone who can be faithful and that he cant. He said he had already slept with several women.  I have been numb since then, but I have not talked to him and I feel I'm finally completely done. At least I hope so. The last thing I told him was to not try to see me ever again, to stay away from me, and I dont even care if he's dead. Mean I know, but truthfully thats how I feel. So, thats where I'm at..