Update ON my MIL

To all of the people who saw my rant, and my journal and replied in kindness thank you. to those who responded telling me to grow up, I understand I took the negative approach to getting my pain out, and I apologize. I hope you can accept it. FOr those wanting to know how she is... here's the update.  I went up to the hospital last night to see her, she's still sedated still in the ICU. She isn't doing better, shes actually doing worse, but tomorrow they're transferring her to the stroke unit which has me deathly scared. The stroke unit is in the old side of the hospital, and when I say old, I mean my FATHER was born there when it was considered old. Ok, now.. the stroke unit isn't as well staffed as the ICU doesnt respond as quickly as the ICU, and is much slower. This coming from OTHER NURSES!!! Im scared. What if something happens and no one comes? What if ? That one question, those two words are murdering me because I can't possibly know, all I can do is hope, and so far hope hasn't helped.    I prayed last night. I burnt my sage for tranquility, and I had my lavendar incense burning for calm, but it didnt help. Doesnt help. /sigh. WEll, there's how it is. Thanks for reading guys.