Update on my life.

The last past 10 days have been very difficult for me.  I had a friend at my work-just so everybody knows I work at a bar.  He got drunk and fell and cracked his head on Friday a wk ago.  Well, he ended up in shock trauma in a coma and on Friday he passed away.  It was a great lost to all of us.  Then because of this and other reasons things got really crazy at work.  Things are going on that shouldn’t be and not sure if I want to be a part of it.  First, they brought their own beer in, so the bartender on duty didn’t serve them one beer.  This of course is illegal but they don’t see it that way.  Then other things are going on.  Well, I decided to start looking for another job and have been looking on monster and other sites.  I really need something with benefits.  I just feel so lost and not sure where to turn.  I also feel invisible like nobody sees me or notices me.  Even on here sometimes I will post things and they seem to be ignored.  I know that I am just feeling sorry for myself right now but sometimes to be recognized like others are would be appreciative.  Just seems different things in my life are happening and not sure I like what they are.