Update in the life of... nsfw (only joking!)
Hello!
I am now coming to terms with two things; (1) that I am gay and I have been seeing a guy for almost a month now (2) that i don't use this much but I am going to start.
I am going to spend some time on the former because the latter is evident of this posting. I am going t provide some context in the form of a list because it's more concise for me and also what ever poor soul comes and reads this.
-There is a campus bar that everyone goes to on Thursday nights-this is because they serve $2 rails on Thursdays... Who in college does not want to get drunk for like 10 bucks.
-There is a guy who I had an encounter with (let's call him Devin) that night.
-Let's talk about how I know Devin. He works in the same office as my brother, so we have met a few times and rumors of his sexuality had come to me because campus is not that large.
-Did i find him attractive? yes. but the uncertainty of my sexuality- and his -prevented me from acting on pursuing him.
-Ever since we met we would pass each other and say hello... I mean it would be rude otherwise. So that is our background, casual casual acquaintances.
- Back to that night at the bar (February 19th) Devin asked my friend that I went out with if i was gay or bi- because he saw me to be attractive. She laughed it off saying no
-I overheard that conversation and in a stage of drunken indiscriminate confidence I approached him and said that I was gay, but non of my friends knew. We looked at each and laugh and we walk over to this part of the bar that its a hallway that leads to the balcony. Because it is February, the balcony is closed and the lights are turned off.
-Upon entering the hallway we stand looking at each other trying to find our eyes in the seemingly endless dark abyss. Eventually we find each other and our lips meet, in the most tender kiss I've ever experienced in my life. Because of the alcohol, I am not sure how long we we actually in that hallway but it concluded in us exchanging numbers. And us taking Caller ID pictures of us kissing each other.
Since then we have been consistently talking to each other and it's been smooth sailing- with the exception of one event that I will talk about in another journal. And It feel like I am in a real relationship with him... it's scary, excited, confusing, and wonderful all at the same time.
Stay tuned, there is more to come
Thanks for listening... or reading.
I am now coming to terms with two things; (1) that I am gay and I have been seeing a guy for almost a month now (2) that i don't use this much but I am going to start.
I am going to spend some time on the former because the latter is evident of this posting. I am going t provide some context in the form of a list because it's more concise for me and also what ever poor soul comes and reads this.
-There is a campus bar that everyone goes to on Thursday nights-this is because they serve $2 rails on Thursdays... Who in college does not want to get drunk for like 10 bucks.
-There is a guy who I had an encounter with (let's call him Devin) that night.
-Let's talk about how I know Devin. He works in the same office as my brother, so we have met a few times and rumors of his sexuality had come to me because campus is not that large.
-Did i find him attractive? yes. but the uncertainty of my sexuality- and his -prevented me from acting on pursuing him.
-Ever since we met we would pass each other and say hello... I mean it would be rude otherwise. So that is our background, casual casual acquaintances.
- Back to that night at the bar (February 19th) Devin asked my friend that I went out with if i was gay or bi- because he saw me to be attractive. She laughed it off saying no
-I overheard that conversation and in a stage of drunken indiscriminate confidence I approached him and said that I was gay, but non of my friends knew. We looked at each and laugh and we walk over to this part of the bar that its a hallway that leads to the balcony. Because it is February, the balcony is closed and the lights are turned off.
-Upon entering the hallway we stand looking at each other trying to find our eyes in the seemingly endless dark abyss. Eventually we find each other and our lips meet, in the most tender kiss I've ever experienced in my life. Because of the alcohol, I am not sure how long we we actually in that hallway but it concluded in us exchanging numbers. And us taking Caller ID pictures of us kissing each other.
Since then we have been consistently talking to each other and it's been smooth sailing- with the exception of one event that I will talk about in another journal. And It feel like I am in a real relationship with him... it's scary, excited, confusing, and wonderful all at the same time.
Stay tuned, there is more to come
Thanks for listening... or reading.
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