Update: in detail. :D
Lots of things have changed since I last updated.
I have been basically laying low and sorting things out in my life that was well over due. I made a vow to only bring people in my life that are worthy of my friendship. Now please note I don’t think I am something completely awesome and special. I have just been caught in friendships where I am finding I am giving more and the other is constantly taking. No more of that.
I have met a friend, Mark, back in October that is so kind, sweet, caring, and charming as anyone I have ever known. Our friendship is truly a two way street and I find we spend a lot of time together. So much so we are talking about moving in together at the end of April when his lease is up. It will be nice to have a companion and someone to share the bills with not to mention just having someone to do things with. I am looking forward to all of that.
Since the end of January I have been working out almost everyday and watching what I am eating. This is a total lifestyle change not a diet. I have lost 15 pounds so far. I am also studying Qi Gong which is a form of meditation and exercise. I am enjoying it very much.
My 31st birthday is at the end of this month. I swore up and down I wasn’t going to celebrate it only because of how hurt I was that no one even acknowledged my 30th birthday last year. It was already bad enough it was my first birthday in my new life but I was also turning 30 and no one said a word- not even my so called best friend. Well, I debated back and forth as to whether to ignore it. Mark told me he wasn’t going to let that happen. He confessed he was throwing me a party and already invited a few people. I asked him if he invited my best friend, her hubby and my god kids. He told me no (he doesn’t like the way she treats me) but if I wanted them there he will send them an invite. I am undecided.
You see my best friend I thought was changing. Then suddenly she just starting taking and taking to the point that it was very unhealthy. When she and her family were going through hardship I was there every time with anything I could give. When I needed help she wasn’t even there. She goes through phases where she is the nicest most caring person and then she turns selfish and petty. I knew things were turning for the worse when she started her bartering crap- well if you do this for me I will do this for you. I don’t want a friendship like that- that keeps score. Because if we were keeping score she would be done for- I spent two weeks helping her clean and organize her house just to walk in her house 4 days later to see it tore up and filthy again, gave her family groceries while going without myself when things were hard, let her borrow money, helped organize, set up and break/clean up after her 30th bday party, ran a crap load of errands for her plus much more. What has she done in return? Nothing. She doesn’t want to keep score with me.
So, I am totally undecided if I want to invite them to my party not only because of what I fore mentioned but also because they complain about everything. Honestly, I don’t need that. The food we serve down to the cake they will complain about. Quite frankly I am not in the mood.
I admit I have been distancing myself from here. I do put forth effort to meet with her one day a week for lunch if our schedules allow. However, that is about as far as I go at least not until I see some change in her. To talk to her about this sort of thing would be futile but perhaps I should. We have been friends since we were 14...I am hoping our friendship can survive an overhaul.
Hmmm…what else is going on?
Oh! My business has shift gears. I had to adapt it and my skills to the changing times and economy. Officially I am a part time nanny and a part time house hold manager. Not only do people pay me to care for their children but they also pay me to organize their homes, lives, and manage their family’s time. On top of that I have been doing consultations for my herbal business. Essentially I guess I am a life coach. Hmmm…I’ve come pretty fair since my nervous break down, panic attacks and anxiousness. :D
I hope everyone is well and I look forward to catching up with your journals!
<3 Rea
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Justice for the Slain Husky Sled Dogs!
I am totally outraged! Please take a moment to read the attached article and sign the petition! Thank you!
http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com/clickToGive/campaign.faces?siteId=3&campaign=CanadaSledDogs&origin=ARS_FACE_FAN_ADGROUP_PHOTO_TAKEACTION_SLEDDOGS_CTG_0228
I have been basically laying low and sorting things out in my life that was well over due. I made a vow to only bring people in my life that are worthy of my friendship. Now please note I don’t think I am something completely awesome and special. I have just been caught in friendships where I am finding I am giving more and the other is constantly taking. No more of that.
I have met a friend, Mark, back in October that is so kind, sweet, caring, and charming as anyone I have ever known. Our friendship is truly a two way street and I find we spend a lot of time together. So much so we are talking about moving in together at the end of April when his lease is up. It will be nice to have a companion and someone to share the bills with not to mention just having someone to do things with. I am looking forward to all of that.
Since the end of January I have been working out almost everyday and watching what I am eating. This is a total lifestyle change not a diet. I have lost 15 pounds so far. I am also studying Qi Gong which is a form of meditation and exercise. I am enjoying it very much.
My 31st birthday is at the end of this month. I swore up and down I wasn’t going to celebrate it only because of how hurt I was that no one even acknowledged my 30th birthday last year. It was already bad enough it was my first birthday in my new life but I was also turning 30 and no one said a word- not even my so called best friend. Well, I debated back and forth as to whether to ignore it. Mark told me he wasn’t going to let that happen. He confessed he was throwing me a party and already invited a few people. I asked him if he invited my best friend, her hubby and my god kids. He told me no (he doesn’t like the way she treats me) but if I wanted them there he will send them an invite. I am undecided.
You see my best friend I thought was changing. Then suddenly she just starting taking and taking to the point that it was very unhealthy. When she and her family were going through hardship I was there every time with anything I could give. When I needed help she wasn’t even there. She goes through phases where she is the nicest most caring person and then she turns selfish and petty. I knew things were turning for the worse when she started her bartering crap- well if you do this for me I will do this for you. I don’t want a friendship like that- that keeps score. Because if we were keeping score she would be done for- I spent two weeks helping her clean and organize her house just to walk in her house 4 days later to see it tore up and filthy again, gave her family groceries while going without myself when things were hard, let her borrow money, helped organize, set up and break/clean up after her 30th bday party, ran a crap load of errands for her plus much more. What has she done in return? Nothing. She doesn’t want to keep score with me.
So, I am totally undecided if I want to invite them to my party not only because of what I fore mentioned but also because they complain about everything. Honestly, I don’t need that. The food we serve down to the cake they will complain about. Quite frankly I am not in the mood.
I admit I have been distancing myself from here. I do put forth effort to meet with her one day a week for lunch if our schedules allow. However, that is about as far as I go at least not until I see some change in her. To talk to her about this sort of thing would be futile but perhaps I should. We have been friends since we were 14...I am hoping our friendship can survive an overhaul.
Hmmm…what else is going on?
Oh! My business has shift gears. I had to adapt it and my skills to the changing times and economy. Officially I am a part time nanny and a part time house hold manager. Not only do people pay me to care for their children but they also pay me to organize their homes, lives, and manage their family’s time. On top of that I have been doing consultations for my herbal business. Essentially I guess I am a life coach. Hmmm…I’ve come pretty fair since my nervous break down, panic attacks and anxiousness. :D
I hope everyone is well and I look forward to catching up with your journals!
<3 Rea
~*~
Justice for the Slain Husky Sled Dogs!
I am totally outraged! Please take a moment to read the attached article and sign the petition! Thank you!
http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com/clickToGive/campaign.faces?siteId=3&campaign=CanadaSledDogs&origin=ARS_FACE_FAN_ADGROUP_PHOTO_TAKEACTION_SLEDDOGS_CTG_0228
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oh wow you do sound like you are doing so good - glad to hear it. I think for myself if the woman has gone to barter friendship then the friendship doesn\'t mean that much to her