update for after the wedding
So the wedding was over a week ago and then they went on their honeymoon and I took care of my two year old grandson . It was all very beautiful and hectic and emotional and I felt truely blessed with this amazing family I have that is healthy and happy. I did not let myself think about my 24 year old addicted son who relapsed one week before this event... My kids will all leave tomorrow and then I will allow myself to think about my lost son... I have been reading a story about a 6 year old with scitzophrenia and its heartbreaking but it has made me realize my son has major mental illness, no he may not have scitzophrenia but he does have voices in his head that make him totally self conscious, to the point where he has been self medicating since he was 12 years old. I guess I never realized how bad that must of made him feel and why he must of felt like he had to take something ANYTHING just to make the voices be quiet in the meantime he got addicted and now he sits in jail. We treat folks with cancer with all kinds of compassion and medication but our mentally ill get shortchanged. We don't always admit it or if we do and we finally ask for help the help that is available is so lacking..... this is the sad state I am in and I know there must be others who feel this frustration... this is what happened to my son and I think it took me too long to figure this out and sadly will I ever be able to get him the help that he needs?
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isnt that good that he moved into a sober house
Hey there. I haven\'t been on this site for awhile becasue my son was doing better. Gee, guess why I am back :(
Anyhow I thought of you because my son has a court date next week. He could possibly get up to a year in juvie and my ex and I decided to push for that since, kiddo after 5 months sober decided the depression was too overwhelming and he needed to try more hardcore drugs to deal with the pain. I remember how you\'ve agonized over jail and thinking sometimes it is the safer place for addicts to be. That\'s kind of where we are at. It\'s awful.
I was really happy to read that your son decided to go into a sober living house. Seems you\'ve had the usual ups and downs over the summer with him. I will keep you both in my thoughts and hope for his success :)
So the wedding was over a week ago and then they went on their honeymoon and I took care of my two year old grandson . It was all very beautiful and hectic and emotional and I felt truely blessed with this amazing family I have that is healthy and happy. I did not let myself think about my 24 year old addicted son who relapsed one week before this event... My kids will all leave tomorrow and then I will allow myself to think about my lost son... I have been reading a story about a 6 year old with scitzophrenia and its heartbreaking but it has made me realize my son has major mental illness, no he may not have scitzophrenia but he does have voices in his head that make him totally self conscious, to the point where he has been self medicating since he was 12 years old.
I guess I never realized how bad that must of made him feel and why he must of felt like he had to take something ANYTHING just to make the voices be quiet in the meantime he got addicted and now he sits in jail.
We treat folks with cancer with all kinds of compassion and medication but our mentally ill get shortchanged. We don\'t always admit it or if we do and we finally ask for help the help that is available is so lacking.....
this is the sad state I am in and I know there must be others who feel this frustration... this is what happened to my son and I think it took me too long to figure this out and sadly will I ever be able to get him the help that he needs?