Update: Feeling a little uneasy
My husband and I experience another loss this past weekend. We had a positive pregnancy test on April 21, and we were so happy and excited. We even bought our baby its first pair of shoes that same day. Being two months since our first loss, we were for sure this was our miracle baby. Although we were happy we didn't spread the news. Then a weekend later the unexpected happened, I went to the bathroom and noticed spotting. I was so terrified but I told myself I wouldn't worry. Then the next morning it the bleeding was heavier, then the cramping began. I took another pregnancy and it said negative. I called my doctor and she said there was no point for me to go to the emergency, and this was probably a chemical pregnancy, which is an early miscarriage. I was devastated and still feeling a little depressed at times. I was so hopeful. I still feel like its not real at times, but I realized its just not our time to have a child. I don't think I want to try again anytime soon. I know God is still good and our time will come but its just not now.
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Godsgirl12, I am so sorry, my heart weeps for you. Again, you are not alone. I experienced 2-loss. One in 2009 right after we got married and another at the end of last yr. Like you too, I knew the second was a miracle. The second loss really caught me be surprise. I even became mad at God. But this has been one of the biggest test of my faith in life. If not me then who? Who am I to only accept good from God? Will I trust God through not 1 but 2 loss? In all of this craziness, dont give up. We may not see the purpose now, but trust that your latter will be greater than your past. And our second pregnancies, were still miracles inspite what it looks like. God is still good, God is still faithful. Praying for you! I encourage you to see your OB and/or fertility specialist for testing.
I\'m so sorry for your loss. Two losses so close to each other, I can\'t imagine how hard this is for you. Please keep sharing with us. We are here for you. You and your husband are in my prayers. Only you will know when you are ready to try again, and when you are ready, I pray that it will be a success.