Update

Hi everyone!! *wave*

Soo, I don't really know how I'm doing. My friends and boyfriend know about my dad. But my mother doesn't. I still cant tell her. I feel soo broken still. But Cutie is helping, it feels like he is glueing pieces together. I love him, we have done stuff. I dont regret it, but I dont feel so self conscious with him either. I feel safer, ) im more adventerous (anxious and shy girl here) with him. He took me bowling and I did a bit. 

But I'm still struggling. Im depressed still and feel like in not worthy of him. I'm dirty, he doesnt deserve someone like me. I dont deserve him. He is so amazing and hasn't killed my father. 

I get too high strung, hyper, a bit violent (play fighting and messing around, i end up actually hurting people) i never mean too. Too emotional and i hate it. It makes me hate myself.