update- 2-25-10

Hello everyone, Steve has had a difficult cycle this month. He is off Sutent Saturday this week, and I am so glad. He has had most of the nasty symthoms this time. The last two cycles were almost a breeze comparied to this one. He has had a terrible time with his feet. The diarea, nausea, no taste coming sooner than ususal. Oh, did I mention CRANKY.  I have really felt for him and at the same time he has been hard to live with.  I feel guilt for saying this but why do people hurt the ones that love you the most. You can tell I'am a bit cranky myself. I don't tell this to many people. He will say his sorry and I accept it and go on.  How would I feel if I were in his shoes?  He also has to deal with knowing he will have to stay on this or something for the rest of his life. Please don't think I'am not grateful, because I am glad that research came along with something.  When he was dianosed all those years  ago the only thing that was working was to cut the cancer out. The wonderful news for all of us is the longer our loved ones can live the better chance we have of finding a cure.   I know that Steve is not as sick as some of the people on DS. But please know that I think of this site DAILY and pray for those who are here.  Hope everyone is having a day a good day.  Love to all, Wanda