update

i know tht its my goal to stay sober but its very very diffcult for me to do tht.i havent gone one day being sober i want to but right now it just doesnt seem like i can.      
ok so its been 4 years since i made this goal and so much has happened in that time, and out of everything thats happened me getting sober has not been one of them. i guess ill just have to keep on trying till one day i can finally say "yes im sober and have been for............. and im happy to be."  but till then heres to trying.