Upcoming Angel date

As I approach Eddie's Angel Date I am in amazement that I have lived without him for almost 1 year now. Those 1st few days,weeks I thought I would die & sort of wanted to. I was a young when he was born & he was the center for me. After God, he came next. He was a good & loyal son.
For his Angel Date we will go to the cemetary. Then we will gather as a family & I am sure we will cry. And cry. But its OK. The next day at our litle Methodist Church he will be remembered & His children, his ex, myself & Ken will receive prayers from the congregation for peace & healing. The pastor & I picked out some hymns & I will get flowers for the altar. I am buying Joshua, Christina, (Eddie's children), my former DIL, Elaine & Ken & I each a red rose. Extended family & Eddie's best friend Mike are coming & then I will have a brunch in Eddie's honor at my house after. I truly want to celebrate his life, but if we are sad, so be it.
I am going to write here about all that my son has taught me & given me in the last year. I think that will help me get through that day.
Eddie's birthday will be September 22nd. He would have been 39 this year. I haven't made plans yet for that day. As Eddie used to say, "Baby steps, Mom, Baby steps".  Ok Eddie, I'll try. :)
Love & peace to all.