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i've not been feeling very motivated lately. i make plans to keep myself on track and abandon them hours later. i have school tomorrow and a report due for work...the report was actually due today. it's 1 am and i have to leave at 4 to be at work on time. i know i will tired in the morning, but i'm not sleepy right now. i actually don't want to go to school tomorrow and i want to go to work even less. why can't i find a rhythm or motivation. i feel i am floundering hopelessly...
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I\'m sorry you are struggling... I think finding motivation is solidly hard to do... and ugh having to leave home at 4am to get to work
hope you start to feel better soon x
thank you hon for your support! i really do appreciate it so very much. i\'m still feeling like a lump, but i\'m hoping it\'ll pass soon. school is a 2 hour commute and yes it\'s awful, but at least i don\'t have 6 am starts every day. that\'d kill me, i think. as it is i hate having to go so far 3xs a week. and the drive home is horrific if i\'m there after sunset because it\'s all country roads with no lights. full moon\'s are lovely, but other than that i could pass on the driving. still, a year ago, two years ago, i couldn\'t drive for more than 20 minutes by myself without a massive anxiety attack, so yay for progress!