Up To Now

It has occured to me that up until a year ago, I always had someone who cared.  First there was Mom.  We'd talk for hours.  Nothing was off limits.  Then my husband.  He was my best friend and again, nothing off limits.  But now I'm alone.  Yes, my father is still here and I have a wonderful step-daughter, but I'm talking about having someone around who feels a part of any decision you make.  Here I am making one of the biggest decisions of my life:buying property, but there is no one to bounce ideas off of.  No one who really cares what I buy.  Eventually, I'll make up my mind and buy something.  I know that.  But still.  I think of the times I went house hunting with my parents and then later with my husband.  We used to talk hours about the features and benefits of the prospetive house.  But now....
Well, I just miss it.  Miss him.