Up, Down & Still All Around

Boy where do I begin here.
Can we say "regressed".  I saw my rheumy & when he looked at my legs he just shook his head & say that it was as bad as back when I was hospitalized all those yrs ago.  He did run some blood tests to check various platlet leves & other levels & took a chest x-ray.  I'll get the results on the 23rd.
He put me on prednisone, a moderate dose but not too large.  We'll see on the 23rd I guess if anything further will be needed.  I was really really angry abt this & could not understand how I let it happen.  My rheumy really doesn't think it was my lifestyle & he seems to feel that this time it's just the nature of the beast & that it just decided it wanted to have a temper tantrum.
I think I mentioned abt the joint/muscle pains, well, I stopped taking the b supplement I had added & bingo that solved that problem.  Can't figure that one out.
My emotions have been up, down & all around.  There's been times, where, oh I don't know, it's hard to find the words, I felt like I was losing touch with faith & strength & was scattered in alot of directions all at once.  I'm trying to refocus, spending more time with my devotional reading & focusing my heart on the Lord but there have been moments where I seem to slip into the basement emotionally.  At least I know I've had the Lords hand to help pull me back up.  So I shook myself off, got back to the gym today & some yoga.  Get this, when I had finished & was on my way home I happened to notice my hands and lower arms & the rash was like 99% gone & it was not that gone last night.  I know I've felt the Lords presence the last few days & wow when I noticed this I wish I could of just yelled praise to him for blessing me like that.  I know the prednisone is starting to kick in but I feel confident that the Lords hand is also at work here.
Just got a ph call fr my diabetes dr & my thyroid is off a bit.  I've been taking a pill for 6 days & then not on Sunday & now they want to take one every day so I guess that has come into play here also.
Something that really bothers me is the way I feel I need to pull back fr my sister & her depression right now.  I don't know, part of me feels like I just can't go there at this time which I know is not right but I need to focus alot on me.
Well all my dear dear friends here, you all are such an important part of my life that I can't imagine where I'd be without all of you.