Up, Down & All Around

Boy life is throwing me more curve balls then I ever would of thought I could catch & handle but thru the Lords help I'm holding my own, with the exception of my lupus rash problem.  Man words cannot describe how it's invading almost all over my body as of today.  I don't know how I've managed not to scratch all my skin off & I can't even begin to think of a way to describe how that feels.
I spent some quiet journal & prayer time a few days back & I really opened my whole heart & physically imagined laying it all at the Lords feet.  I truly felt blessed when the next day I noticed it was starting to fade but alas it was short lived.
I know that although I'm asking for the Lord to extend his hand to aid & help heal me but as he knows what we need & when I'm currently trying to accept that this is the way things are meant to be at this time.  My rheumy did have a cancellation for Monday a.m. so at least I'm seeing him.  What really super bugs me is that I feel it will be inevitable that I'll be on meds again.  I'm angered by this in that I had really kicked butt with this for quite a while now & was 95% med free, now, bingo.
I think I'm going to ask him if he has any suggestions or ideas as to what might have set this off.  I'd sure like to be able to analyze this in order to ensure it doesn't have to happen again.
As of mid day today now it's spreading on my arms & some new batches on my legs.  We had to take Callie to the vet this morning as she took ill the last few days.  Boy your mind really wanders off to not nice places isn time like this.  We did find out though that she has some kind of inflamation & maybe infection in her upper airway so we've got amoxicillin & steroids for 10 days.  Poor little munchkin the way she was coughing & such.  Your heart sure goes out to them.
Well I think I've whined enough here for a bit but I just the need lean on people that I know will understand where I'm coming from.
Love you all so very much.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I sure hope your rash goes away real soon. I know how you feel. Been there, done that. Hope Monday comes soon for you so you can see your Rheumy. Will be thinking of you.
I sure hope Callie gets well soon. Antibiotics should do the trick.
Hugs and love... Nance
mechellebelle
mechellebelle

I am so sorry to hear that! You have a good attitude about things despite what you are going through. I know you are sad about probably going on more or new meds, but if they are temporary, aren\'t they better than the rash? I do know how you feel. I dread more drugs, BUT for me, I can see that my disorder is genetic and I just can\'t lick it entirely with diet and lifestyle, so I give myself a break about taking meds. It\'s just necessary. If we keep the rest of our lives as clean as possible, I think our bodies can handle a few meds, just mho, though. Sometimes it helps to think of meds as a way to stop a problem from getting really big. Like how I use mtx and plaq to keep my lupus from probably going to my organs or causing permanent damage. So, I hope whatever happens that the meds are temporary and very effective, asap! = ) I don\'t like to hear you are suffering because you are such a dear soul and a light to all your friends. You are still in my prayers my friend. xoxo
mechellebelle
mechellebelle

love to Callie too. Sorry she is ill. My little old schnauzer is ill now. he came back from the groomer seeming to be injured. hmmm. your hearts just go out to them, I so do understand. sniff sniff.
deleted_user
deleted_user

My poor baby Callie, I know how you worry about your baby, but she will be ok I am concerned about \"YOU\". I think Stress has allot to do with your rash. I pray the doctor will be able to help you and get that rash under control. Your in my prayers. Love, Frieda x0x0x