Up, Down & All Around
Boy life is throwing me more curve balls then I ever would of thought I could catch & handle but thru the Lords help I'm holding my own, with the exception of my lupus rash problem. Man words cannot describe how it's invading almost all over my body as of today. I don't know how I've managed not to scratch all my skin off & I can't even begin to think of a way to describe how that feels.
I spent some quiet journal & prayer time a few days back & I really opened my whole heart & physically imagined laying it all at the Lords feet. I truly felt blessed when the next day I noticed it was starting to fade but alas it was short lived.
I know that although I'm asking for the Lord to extend his hand to aid & help heal me but as he knows what we need & when I'm currently trying to accept that this is the way things are meant to be at this time. My rheumy did have a cancellation for Monday a.m. so at least I'm seeing him. What really super bugs me is that I feel it will be inevitable that I'll be on meds again. I'm angered by this in that I had really kicked butt with this for quite a while now & was 95% med free, now, bingo.
I think I'm going to ask him if he has any suggestions or ideas as to what might have set this off. I'd sure like to be able to analyze this in order to ensure it doesn't have to happen again.
As of mid day today now it's spreading on my arms & some new batches on my legs. We had to take Callie to the vet this morning as she took ill the last few days. Boy your mind really wanders off to not nice places isn time like this. We did find out though that she has some kind of inflamation & maybe infection in her upper airway so we've got amoxicillin & steroids for 10 days. Poor little munchkin the way she was coughing & such. Your heart sure goes out to them.
Well I think I've whined enough here for a bit but I just the need lean on people that I know will understand where I'm coming from.
Love you all so very much.
I spent some quiet journal & prayer time a few days back & I really opened my whole heart & physically imagined laying it all at the Lords feet. I truly felt blessed when the next day I noticed it was starting to fade but alas it was short lived.
I know that although I'm asking for the Lord to extend his hand to aid & help heal me but as he knows what we need & when I'm currently trying to accept that this is the way things are meant to be at this time. My rheumy did have a cancellation for Monday a.m. so at least I'm seeing him. What really super bugs me is that I feel it will be inevitable that I'll be on meds again. I'm angered by this in that I had really kicked butt with this for quite a while now & was 95% med free, now, bingo.
I think I'm going to ask him if he has any suggestions or ideas as to what might have set this off. I'd sure like to be able to analyze this in order to ensure it doesn't have to happen again.
As of mid day today now it's spreading on my arms & some new batches on my legs. We had to take Callie to the vet this morning as she took ill the last few days. Boy your mind really wanders off to not nice places isn time like this. We did find out though that she has some kind of inflamation & maybe infection in her upper airway so we've got amoxicillin & steroids for 10 days. Poor little munchkin the way she was coughing & such. Your heart sure goes out to them.
Well I think I've whined enough here for a bit but I just the need lean on people that I know will understand where I'm coming from.
Love you all so very much.
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