Up, Down & All Around
I almost don't know what I want to say or think at times lately. I feel it's journal time but yet I might just ramble senselessly, who knows.
More or less doing OK I guess. I've got a negative monkey trying to stay on my back regarding my hubby & the prostate c word thing (I refuse to even approach, say or think the word). I'm doing just abt everything I humanly can to put out only positive thoughts & feelings, stay positive & refuse to go anywhere else but gee whiz it feels dam hard at times.
Hubby has a bone scan on July 27th & then we have to wait till Sept 9th to get the results. He had an earlier appt but they had to reschedule. I asked hubby if he wanted me to phone the c word clinic & see abt a cancellation list but he didn't want to & I feel it's only right to respect his wishes. I know I need to focus on keeping strength & total faith that this is where the Lord wants us to be right now.
I'm blessed that it's not affecting my lupus but I've increased my appointments with my reflexologist & I know in my heart & soul that that & focusing on the Lord is keeping me safe in that area. My reflexologist last wk did say that she had a hard time reaching thru to me, that I was very cold & she couldn't get anything flowing. She said my heart chakra area was like it had a barrier around it & her only concern was that she said I need to release all the pent up stuff & find a way to only live in the here & now. I feel I need or maybe want to say more here but I'm all of a sudden empty for words, can't figure that out?????
Sure wish I had some amusing stories to tell the few that check out my journals but alas I don't. Life is pretty quiet right at this point. I find our super extreme heat & my lupus don't get along too well so we're staying pretty close to home but we do get out & do various little day sort of trips & some of them I have to admit have been a good escape & now that I stop & document this I even momentarily fogot abt the monkey on my back.
Anywho I'll sign off for now & so love all of you & on so many levels you are rocks in my life. Take care all.
More or less doing OK I guess. I've got a negative monkey trying to stay on my back regarding my hubby & the prostate c word thing (I refuse to even approach, say or think the word). I'm doing just abt everything I humanly can to put out only positive thoughts & feelings, stay positive & refuse to go anywhere else but gee whiz it feels dam hard at times.
Hubby has a bone scan on July 27th & then we have to wait till Sept 9th to get the results. He had an earlier appt but they had to reschedule. I asked hubby if he wanted me to phone the c word clinic & see abt a cancellation list but he didn't want to & I feel it's only right to respect his wishes. I know I need to focus on keeping strength & total faith that this is where the Lord wants us to be right now.
I'm blessed that it's not affecting my lupus but I've increased my appointments with my reflexologist & I know in my heart & soul that that & focusing on the Lord is keeping me safe in that area. My reflexologist last wk did say that she had a hard time reaching thru to me, that I was very cold & she couldn't get anything flowing. She said my heart chakra area was like it had a barrier around it & her only concern was that she said I need to release all the pent up stuff & find a way to only live in the here & now. I feel I need or maybe want to say more here but I'm all of a sudden empty for words, can't figure that out?????
Sure wish I had some amusing stories to tell the few that check out my journals but alas I don't. Life is pretty quiet right at this point. I find our super extreme heat & my lupus don't get along too well so we're staying pretty close to home but we do get out & do various little day sort of trips & some of them I have to admit have been a good escape & now that I stop & document this I even momentarily fogot abt the monkey on my back.
Anywho I'll sign off for now & so love all of you & on so many levels you are rocks in my life. Take care all.
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Hi There,
MY Thoughts And Prayers
Are With You And Hubby...
Love Ya, Barbara
It sounds like you are handling life awfully healthfully and gracefully. I need a dash of that right about now haha. When you are ready, you can release whatever you need to, but for now, you know best what is best for you my friend, so do what you feel is right. Hang in there and keep that positive attitude. It is wonderful!
Sometimes when I am not sure what to think or do, I just pray that God put HIS desires in my heart and that always makes me feel 100% better. love and prayers, m
Thank you for this update! You\'re just living LIFE, no big stories, no big announcements, just going down the path. I hope all works for hubbie and know how hard this is to keep positive spins. Is your hubbie negative? That would make it even harder.
So you\'re crispy out there too? Floods to this. Likely we get your weather a day later... I\'ll likely get fined by the city as I water every day. Pooh on them all as they water their city golf courses. Yay!
I checked out your journal and to my surprise I found this!! LOL You are always so positive and I wish I was more like that. Mel is in God\'s hands and that my friend is the best place to be. You are living day to day just like the rest of us. Some days its so quiet here I want to scream just hear some noise. LOL..Take life day to day my friend and each day God is guiding you and Mel. I love you my sweet friend. xoxo and all my love, Frieda