up-date 3-9-10

Hello everyone, It is a beautiful day in North Carolina. I think spring has finally arrived in the south. I have had all of you on my mind today. I pray for each of you.  Steve is feeling like himself yesterday and today. It is amazing what being off Sutent for a few days does for him. He worked outside yesterday and is planning on taking the mower today for service. He has smiled a lot more and I thank God for that.
He continues to have very bad dreams. I wonder if this is caused by Sutent. Has anyone experienced this side effects? He does not rest well at night and it is ofter early morning when he sleeps the best. I just let him sleep and try to be quiet.  Of course when has these dreams it is hard to wake him!  I fully expect to be socked one day.
I have read the journals of those who are trying to cope with the loss of their loved one. I can't fully wrap my mind around the suffering. We have been married so long, and he has been my one and only love. I do pray for those who pour your hearts out in the journals, I just hope you can feel those prayers.  This site has helped me so much, dear Carol is so strong and she has become my hero. All of you have become so special to me, you inspire more than I can say.   With much love to you all, Wanda