up at 5am

because i cant sleep because i am so nervouse about my blood test results. Grrrr. I hate being nervouse. I hope this morning goes by fast. I have my bowling banquet at 9:30. Yes i belong to a bowling league. It was my mommy time once a week for 2 hours. Its all over now. Since teh move its been like an hour and 15 minute drive. Ian is going to the babysitters today becaus ethey have childcare at the bowling ally but we are going ot a resturant and i dont want to take him to a resturant for 2-3 hours. It would be a nightmare. Its a new babysitter so we will see how it goes. By the time i get back and put him down for his nap it shoudl be close to 1. I am so so scared and nervouse. I think my boobs are starting to get sore. I have been scared because i have NO symptoms, well except for bloating. Yuck. I mean nothing no morning sickness (yay) no tender boobs, nada. Granted in only 4 weeks 4days. I know it usually is closer to 6 weeks  that those things come. Who knows. I cant rust mt body at all. I dont know what is real or a figment of my imagination. I layed awake last night thinking about feeling teh baby move. I was remembering how I would get up to go to the restroom in teh middle of the night and not be able to go back to sleep until i felt ian move. Then i remember trying not to wake him up when i got up in the middle of the night because he would turn into a jumping bean for a few hours. Please hurry up 1:30!!!