Up and down

So I started cycle monitoring on the 11th and it seems like the clomid is not working....it is day 19 and I have not even ovulated yet. It has been a depressing week. I wake up so early just to have the blood test then get a call about my levels. Up one day then down the next...and one day there was no progestrone at all. The nurse is baffled. She is hoping that we did not miss ovulation...all I know is that I was on clomid for a year and it did not work. My cycles seem to be longer on the Clomid then they did on the letrozole. My mother was over last night and we cleaned up most of the basement. Of course I found mouse stuff which made me paranoid that we still have them lurking around. But then again most of that stuff had not been moved since we moved it there 3 years ago. I am hoping to throw alot of items out (Goodwill it) or have a garage sale. I am hoping to just minimize our furniture and stuff. With clutter there comes dusts and it becomes harder to clean.I sort of asked DH about what to do about next month. At the beginning of the month I will be mourning the loss of my brother, then on the 17th I will be mourning the loss of our child. It would have been his/her birthday and I really feel that I need to do something. I guess I need to say goodbye properly and release him/her. I should post a discussion question to find out what others have done.It is time to go and get some sleep... until next time.Good night