Untruthful

Im untruthful with a lot of things. Im trying to train myself into reversing my braim. But how come is it that its so easy to tell a lie without training myself to tell lies but its more difficult to train my brain on not wantinf to tell lies. Ive be practicing and avoid doing things that will put me into situation that will trigger me to lie. At the same time i well concern that i wont get better. Im not doubting myself im just saying will it ever end. I dont hate who i am. I dislike what im doing to my character. Every day is a struggle and im just fighting my way out. I wont to change and believe i can. Sometimes i think tbat im more comfortable with lying to havd ppl think im something im not. And that's the truth i think that's one problem many folks have. Hmmm??