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I am really starting to wonder if I should be even looking at Facebook anymore. It seems like anytime I look at it I end up lonely for the people I'm talking to that I can't see. It's not like I could see them even if I was living in B'ham but I still get lonely and a little jealous. Also while I didn't spend much time with people in B'ham (I'm an introvert naturally) at least I had the option and I saw plenty of people at work. Sometimes it just doesn't seem like they have to struggle as hard as my hubby and I do to make things meet. Things just seem easier for them.
That and last night I was starting to wonder if I'd missed out on something by not having children. Granted at the time of my hysterectomy it didn't seem like I had much choice since I had exhausted so many treatment options and didn't have visible disease so it wasn't like they could "cut it out". That and logistically getting pregnant would have been a nightmare considering at the point of my surgery I was only have one good week a month and sex was close to impossible due to discomfort. Financially children were undoable then and are even more undoable now! But the wonderous world of hindsight is 20 20.
Shoulda Coulda Woulda. The band marches on. I seem to be worrying more and more these days, don't know why. Maybe because I feel like I currently have less control over my life but more stress. But to talk to my husband u would think that he has all the stress! *Sigh* Not much more to say!
That and last night I was starting to wonder if I'd missed out on something by not having children. Granted at the time of my hysterectomy it didn't seem like I had much choice since I had exhausted so many treatment options and didn't have visible disease so it wasn't like they could "cut it out". That and logistically getting pregnant would have been a nightmare considering at the point of my surgery I was only have one good week a month and sex was close to impossible due to discomfort. Financially children were undoable then and are even more undoable now! But the wonderous world of hindsight is 20 20.
Shoulda Coulda Woulda. The band marches on. I seem to be worrying more and more these days, don't know why. Maybe because I feel like I currently have less control over my life but more stress. But to talk to my husband u would think that he has all the stress! *Sigh* Not much more to say!
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I had 2 children amd believe me they are highly over rated, I love them, they live their own lives and as I get older I\'m just more of a problem for them to ignore.My sister doesn\'t have children and she\'s so happily married and peaceful that I believe it\'s the not having that gives them such a peaceful life. Now she has 2 children she minds as respite for the carers and that\'s enough kids in her life for her.Everybodies life seems better because you only see the surface, I hope your stress levels go down and you are content. Hugs.
Facebook is deceiving. Nobody puts their problems on Facebook! Everybody wants the world to think that they\'re doing okay, so all that gets put up on FB is the good stuff. I actually read a article on this and how it ends up depressing people because everybody else\'s lives look so much better than your own. Never believe that what you see on FB is the whole story.
As for having kids, there is always adoption. That\'s the way my Hubby and I are looking at it. I just got my tubes tied because I\'m just too sick to properly raise a child. Should that ever change, then we\'ll adopt. I don\'t have to give birth to a child to love it the same. I think the same is probably true for you, too.
My guess is that right now you\'re sad because you had to move, you haven\'t made any new friends, and you\'re feeling like you\'re alone in the world because nothing feels familiar. Give yourself some time. Things will get better. Write your worries on a piece of paper. Separate out the ones you can do something about, and put the rest in a box marked, \"God\'s responsibility.\" You can\'t fix everything, and you\'re not supposed to. Leave a few things up to God. That\'s what He\'s there for. I hope things improve quickly for you! *HUGS*