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I'm writing because on these Ricky Gervais podcasts, Karl's dairy is quite humorous. My aquarium is really getting out of hand. The plants are overgrown, and the algae is completely all over the place. I don't have a way to scrub it off the glass. I worry that if I use my hands I worry I'll get some nicotine in the water from my hands, and I know it's highly toxic to aquatic creatures, just as are most insecticide. Quite something to think about heh? I use an insecticide as a drug. I feel like some stupid kid huffing raid out of a garbage bag. I've gotten to where I smoke more. I don't have money for e-liquid, the foam I'm using in the cartridges isn't proper, and the new atomizers are inferior. I've almost gotten through black ops but I'm taking my time. I'm still pretty depressed, but I think I'm getting a little better the past couple of days. I'm a little nervous that this MAOI will work because I wont be able to have any more cheese, and I really love cheese. I need to change the aquarium filter and change some water out. I'm really lonely lately. It really made me happy that mom came home for lunch, even if it was for a short time. I really wish I had energy and felt like doing things because I need to do this mushroom kit. The spawn may dry out or try to fruit if I don't put it together. I feel somewhat stupid for always forgetting the things I need to ask dave about. I don't like how the ricky gervais show focuses on chimpanzees on monkey news because pan troglodytes is very dangerous and there's plenty of other monkeys I hate less. Maybe they could specify bonobos? They don't really have that history of mauling and murdering people like regular chimps. Well never mind about that. I wish I could read more, but I don't care about it. I wish I could care. I wish I could sleep better. I got up around 2 this morning because lucky took up like half the bed. It was snowing so much, I was sure that by morning it'd have snowed a lot, but I fell back asleep around 3:30 and when I awoke, it wasn't quite that much at all. I'd really like to fill up this page. I don't know why.... If I double spaced it, it would be easier, but this spacing looks about right. If we ever figure out how to travel faster than the speed of light, we just have to travel very far, and we erect a gigantic mirror, then we can look at the earth and we can see in the past....we can know the past without the flaws of human nature.