Unsure of myself, unsure of life..

Well, I've decided to cancel my memebership on that dating site that I always see the guy on. I just hope this will help me get over him. I was thinking maybe I should just stop going on the site for a few months and then go back on. I'm just so tired of all this stress at home, school, not being able to be as sociable as I want to because homework or insomnia gets in the way, etc. This stupid fantasy, I'll just write it out: I daydream sometimes about the guy and that we would have a place together and be together while raising a family in NY! Yes, that is where he is from! So faaaaaaar away from where I live.  Sometimes I still wonder if I'd still like to live there. I've thought about it even before I met the guy online. I've never been there, but so many people have told me that I'd like it. I'm an artsy, theatre type of person so maybe that's why.  I don't know if I should let go of that fantasy. It wasn't originally just with him as the ideal partner, but just the fantasy itself, period.  I know, I gotta get my head out of la-la land.