Unsettled

After watching my father pass from Pancreatic cancer in December , I have been dealing with Pancereatic issues since last Oct. /Nov. Yes , I know it sounds conincidental that it conicides with my fathers passing and every physician that I've seen suddenly became physicologist when I went to see them. Over the past six months I've dealt with upper ab pain, back pain and fatty stools. Back in Jan I had a CT scan, MRCP, and EUS which none showed evidence of a tumor. Sooo, all of the GI's I went to see kept quickly dismissing my issues and pain, and told me all of my test were normal. Even when I explained I had told them I had to totally change my lifestyle, I can only eat low fat foods, I am tired pretty easy, and my back pain has not gone away for 5 months.. Finally, I pressed and ask for a fecal fat test, and it came back elevated! So my Gi put me on Creon and asked me to do another MRCP with a special injection. I am only 38, I have two little girls and the toughest things I struggle with emotionally is dealing with how my girls would coupe if I was gone. Funny how things change when you do not feal well, you quickly learn to live much more in the present... my 401k doesn't seem so important anymore , nor does my appearence of my house. Time is the only thing that seems precious.