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It's been a week and a half, and still no word from my husband.  I sent him a Valentine's card yesterday with a letter.  I hope he get's it.  I wonder why he hasn't written to me.  I wonder if he's okay.  I wonder if he's SAFE??  Is he staying busy?  This period of "radio silence" has been very difficult for me to deal with.  Having trouble sleeping, concentrating, and I'm totally stressing out.  Playing seems to help at the moment, but then afterwards, I'm in total angst.  On top of it all, trying to cut back on the cigs because my finances are tenuous. 
Going to attend church and receive ashes and pray for some peace in my mind.  The depression I'm experiencing right now is weighing down on me.  Need a good cry and a strong shoulder to cry on.