unexpected changes...

wow.... life has some pretty unexpected changes!!!  well first of all me and brendon broke up... i found out that he was cheating on me and was pretty much just using me.... it hurt for a while but i came to realize that i'm better off without the ass anyways...    i mean he was someone i wanted to spend the rest of my life with... but i know now that i really wouldn't want to spend my life with someone i can't trust. i mean honestly i couldn't see myself trusting that guy with our future kids... not only that i figured that i wasn't in love with him.. it was just lust. we got physically attactched. there really wasn't too much emotion there.. so thats one new thing.....  so the week that we broke up i went on a family road trip with my dad and the kids to vegas.... i met an amazing guy down there.. his name is austin and he is such a sweetheart. He really boosted my self esteem and helped me get over brendon. me and him are going out now and i'm way happy bout it. he is one of the sweetest guys i have ever met. he is such a gentleman!!! lol he respects my space and actually wants to get to know me and not my body. i really like him.. i'm going to be careful bout throwing around the word love until i know i'm actually in love this time.... but anyways.... life is okay for the most part. i have been sick for the last little while and that's really the only thing that has brought me down.  i hung out with my big brother brian yesterday!! lol i love that kid to death. i swear we are practically glued at the hip!!! he is such a sweetie! we watched the lion king 1 1/2.   oh and i got a phone too!!! i am so glad to have it back.. i have felt so lost without talking to my friends everyday!!! well thats all thats really going on in my life at the moment..so thats all i have to write for now.. i have decided that i'm going to write more often now...ttyl