Unbearable

This ache is just unbearable.  It pushes on my throat and stomach and tear ducts.  I'm trying to do my work, but I just want to throw up.  How could my brother be saying words like "11 weeks"?  I'm the one who knows that you count pregnancy time in weeks.  He doesn't know anything about this.  But he's the one who's seen the heartbeat on the ultrasound.  He's the one who's seen the positive pregnancy test.  He's seen the heartbeat.  He's going to have a baby with a heartbeat!  I just can't believe it.  It's not fair.  They barely tried at all.  And they get everything.  It's just not fair.